The head that threatens to explode.

I remembered that I made a blog. It was kind of a flash of sudden realization that I have been a very irresponsible person. How long has it been since I posted? Last time I was supposed to read something for the book club, so that must have been a while ago. Anyway, life hasn't changed much, only that I'm a high schooler, and my head is plotting mutiny behind my eyes for all the stress I've been putting on it. Other than that, I still strive to write, fight writer's block, struggle against math, and... love video games. I haven't been reading very much, which is a very depressing thought. The books that I've been reading are all for English. I have been able to squeeze in a couple of chapters every now and then, but I still find it very hard to find a good book any more.

So, lately I've been trying to figure out what I'm going to do with my life and have come to the conclusion that I have no idea. No idea what college to attend, no idea what path interests me and no idea what I should do, I'm at a crossroads with myself and have no idea what to do!! grrr.... Until then I'm waiting to see where I'm strongest in and go from there. I don't feel inclined towards a music major, because though I love playing flute, I don't feel as though I want to base my life around it. I know for certain that I won't major in any medical or science fields, and definitely not math. English I can enjoy but do not have the skill or talent to progress in. I enjoy history, but only the concepts and developments that the civilizations faced over time. That leaves me with... absolutely nothing! Digital Media has been fun though... it hasn't been overly taxing and I can easily grasp technology concepts after they've been demonstrated once or twice. Gah! Any suggestions followers?

Anyway, when it comes to my social life I've been about as social as a tree. I find myself unwilling to attach myself to one group of people, whenever I think I should get acquainted I find myself lacking the social skills. That's always been one of my major weaknesses I'm afraid, antisocial and disconnected. No romance on my end, every now and then there will be an alright looking guy but usually that's about it. No enemies to report either, so I guess in a way I'm just lying low until I can find a good opportunity to make a mark somewhere.

I think that's it for now, I'm going to try and post more often, because I know I should, but anyway, I'll repost later. So long for now.

Hurray!!! I found my blog!!!

I thought I'd lost it! I guess that's what happens when I act like a dork and don't post for most of a year right? Anyway... Hello again to you readers out there, here's your sponsor here tonight to talk to you about the weather!

Freezing, Bitter, Cold.

Tralalala, winter (supposed to be spring actually, but bear with me) is in the air, and I am a flower, with not a world to care, (whoever can name the movie for that quote gets twenty points on the prang scoresheet.)

Yeah, so Halloween is coming up soon and I have a lot of work to do. Here's the list:
1. Finish Zelda marathon again
2. Finish Assassin's Creed and the Devil May Cry 1,2,3, and play 4 again.
3. Finish reading the twenty books in my room that are secretly glaring at me from the shelf for leaving them to gather dust in my room.
4. Continue writing my excerpts and try, try sooooo hard to figure out how to like books with female protagonists again. (unlikely though.)
5. Get help from Mal on how to be a good grammarly child.
6. Get more sleep.
7. Finish the last 130 episodes of Sailor moon, I have to see if Rinee reunites with Pegasus and her boyfriend, Tuxedo Mask must live!! Dudes, don't ask.
8. Buy Arch Enemy
9. Memorize at least six stanzas of The Raven
10. Try to contain my patience for the next novel of the Dresden series... breath in... out... in... out... GAH!!!
11. Find new feet with better circulation.

And that's it!! Now time for a good weekly silence, this lovely interlude may continue for several weeks, maybe I'll see you next year. But till then I'll see you!

I hate Curry... and Romance, Band,Art

This for the most part is technically not true, I just don't like it over jasmine indian rice. (I'm starting to suspect that I'm allergic to Jasmine...) I get a little nauseous at times. No biggie though right? Anyway, I just used that for a title cause I couldn't think of anything else... anyway, I badly need a book to read. I'm waiting for Maid Marian and Montmorency to get here from the library so I can read those for my bookclub. I dread reading the prior one... ugh, romance. I never like romance, maybe I should add romance to the title... hehe, brilliant! Ok, well I needed an accompanist for my solo on Tuesday, tried to get a couple people but they couldn't learn it fast enough so now I have to have Colleen, an amazing pianist all the way in Salt Lake, come on down to bountiful just to play for a stupid grade recital!! I hate band too... there we go. Anyway, that's the con of my day, pro... well, that seems to elude me at the moment. What else am I doing... oh, I have a major art assignment due tomorrow and I find myself unable to even get close to completion. Grr.... I hate art too. It's a horrible class where I need to draw!! (Just pointing out the obvious for the helpless Oblivions.) Augh! My Curry's attacking me! It's ALIVE!!!! *stabs a bunch of times with forks* guh... I hate curry.

Absolute boredom

Ugh, so I'm really tired at the moment but I dare not go upstairs. Since I am more bored than I am actually tired I'll just type... more.

Okay, let's get some news in. My sister found Majora's Mask for N64 so that's only AMAZING! I'm rather happy about that, anyway, I also have a sonata competition and a concerto for federation, talk about stress and overwork. So... I've been playing around on goodreads for the past five hours or so, hoping that someone gets on, well, we all know how staying on the internet affects you.

Bad news, I greatly dislike having a baby in the house. I've already had to hold him for who knows how long! My nephew is going to drive me crazy, I can't even listen to my music anymore!! It's mozart playing all day!! Driving me a little insane here. Reading Sunflower, horribly romantic and is driving me insane, the doctor guy is a pussy and the girl needs to get a hold of herself.

Brilliant! I just learned that like, seven books that I want come out the day before my birthday! That's pretty kick butt! It makes b-day shopping easy for me. hehe, AUGH! I'm going to be driven mad if time doesn't hurry up! I'm ready for things to quiet down again. Thank goodness for holidays eh? I'm not ready for second semester and I badly need some cash for book buying. If only I could get my mom to drive me... hm... such a large array of conflicts.

I'm 'replaying' a lot of video games and am about to start DMC1, gonna be intense since it was originally for PS2. But we'll see eh? Okay, now I'm running out of things to type about, um... I have a giant drink craving for lemonade (go figure) and I don't want to practice or do my homework. Bleh! I hate Barton. Let's see, it's 45 degrees in here and I'm getting my butt frozen off! ...-_- That's not a very good thing to have happen.

Alright, I'll stop here for now, talk to ya later.